A break from my last
I am pausing for a brief moment from the cramming I'm doing. My last project done in a few hours. And in a few days, another chapter of my life is OVER!
I'm posting it here instead of at my tumblr (happyjellieplace.tumblr.com) because this is an emo post.
I just finished reading Besf's entry and I share the same feelings. I am, at the moment, very nostalgic. Playing scenes of my Devstud past in my mind, repeatedly--trying to figure out how things became how they are. A lot of people would agree that the things are now far from how it all began four years back.
Remember first year? Yes, that year our love team were Puti and Blue--ages before Blue found Angel and Puti went to CBA. Kimi was stuck with Masig--absent always is now always present. Or at least nearly always. BFFs aren't so anymore. And new friendships are formed.
But now, Imma get back to present and continue with Nostagia Zone after reality bites.
ZODIAC 2009
Stole it from Jo, who got it from Bea.
I like it. The prospects are nice pala for me this year. Hahaha. Unemotional? Sino? Ako?
TAURUS - The Enduring One (April 20 - May 20)
Charming but aggressive. Can come off as boring, but they are not. Hard workers. Warm-hearted. Strong, has endurance. Solid beings who are stable and secure in their ways. Not looking for shortcuts. Take pride in their beauty. Patient and reliable. Make great friends and give good advice. Loving and kind. Loves hard -- passionate. Expresses themselves emotionally. Prone to ferocious temper-tantrums. Determined. Indulges themselves often. Very generous.
CAPRICORN The Go-Getter (Dec 22 - Jan 19)
Patient and wise. Practical and rigid. Ambitious. Tends to be Good-looking. Humorous and funny. Can be a bit shy and reserved. Often pessimistic. Capricorns tend to act before they think and can be Unfriendly at times. Hold grudges. Like competition. Get what they want.
AQUARIUS - The Sweetheart (Jan 20 - Feb 18)
Optimistic and honest. Sweet personality. Very independent. Inventive and intelligent. Friendly and loyal. Can seem unemotional. Can be a bit rebellious. Very stubborn, but original and unique. Attractive on the inside and out. Eccentric personality.
PISCES - The Dreamer (Feb 19 - Mar 20)
Generous, kind, and thoughtful. Very creative and imaginative. May become secretive and vague. Sensitive. Don't like details. Dreamy and unrealistic. Sympathetic and loving. Kind. Unselfish. Good kisser. Beautiful.
ARIES - The Daredevil (Mar 21 - April 19)
Energetic. Adventurous and spontaneous. Confident and enthusiastic. Fun. Loves a Challenge. EXTREMELY impatient. Sometimes selfish. Short fuse. (easily angered.) Lively, passionate, and sharp wit Outgoing. Lose interest quickly - easily bored. Egotistical. Courageous and assertive. Tends to be physical and athletic.
GEMINI - The Chatterbox (May 21 - June 20)
Smart and witty. Outgoing , very chatty. Lively, energetic. Adaptable but needs to express them selves. Argumentative and outspoken. Like change. Versatile. Busy, sometimes nervous and tense. Gossips. May seem superficial or inconsistent. Beautiful physically and mentally.
CANCER - The Protector (June 21 - July 22)
Moody, emotional. May be shy. Very loving and caring. Pretty/handsome Excellent partners for life. Protective. Inventive and imaginative. Cautious. Touchy-feely kind of person. Needs love from others. Easily hurt, but sympathetic.
LEO - The Boss (July 23 - Aug 22)
Very organized. Need order in their lives - like being in control. Like boundaries. Tend to take over everything. Bossy. Like to help Others. Social and outgoing. Extroverted. Generous, warm-hearted. Sensitive. Creative energy. Full of themselves. Loving. Doing the right thing is important to Leos. Attractive.
VIRGO - The Perfectionist (Aug 23 - Sept 22)
Dominant In relationships. Conservative. Always wants the last word. Argumentative. Worries. Very smart. Dislikes noise and chaos. Eager. Hardworking. Loyal. Beautiful. Easy to talk to. Hard to please. Harsh. Practical and very fussy. Often shy. Pessimistic.
LIBRA - The Harmonizer (Sept 23 - Oct 22)
Nice to everyone they meet. Can't make up their mind. Have own unique appeal. Creative, energetic, and very social. Hates to be alone. Peaceful, generous. Very loving and beautiful. Flirtatious. Give in too easily. Procrastinators. Very gullible.
SCORPIO - The Intense One (Oct 23 - Nov 21)
Very energetic. Intelligent. Can be jealous and/or possessive. Hardworking. Great kisser. Can become obsessive or secretive. Holds grudges. Attractive. Determined. Loves being in long Relationships. Talkative. Romantic. Can be self-centered at times. Passionate and Emotional.
SAGITTARIUS - The Happy-Go-Lucky One (Nov 22 - Dec 21)
Good-natured optimist. Doesn't want to grow up (Peter Pan Syndrome). Indulges self. Boastful. Likes luxuries and gambling. Social and outgoing. Doesn't like responsibilities. Often fantasizes. Impatient. Fun to be around. Having lots of friends. Flirtatious. Doesn't like rules. Sometimes hypocritical. Dislikes being confined - tight spaces or even tight clothes. Doesn't like being doubted.
In love
I think I got what I wanted now.
And as much as I wanted more out of it, this is all I could have.
And despite the woozy feeling, I think I smile better now.
Urbandictionary.com
Stolen from Jo. I wasn't able to go to school early. So here I am doing the survey thing.thing
1. Name: Jerelle
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Will always be hyper if you are hyper I'm hyper, so where's Jerelle? Hahaha. Mmkay it does sound like me, huh? Well. Sometimes.
2. Age: 19
A secret code to tell a friend if a girl is really hot. 19 means-really really hard.
Steve: Holy shit, look at that 19!
Lord:Damn shes fine. Jo chose a different meaning. Dami kasi. Pero hey, why not go with hot, huh?
3. One of your friends: Tep An expression of laughter pronounced exactly as spelled and often repeated in fives; also often used to replace "lol" in online conversation.Mel: "wow, my chocolate milk just spilled all over me."
Cat: "tep tep tep tep tep."
4. What should you be doing? Studying - A blend of the words "student" and "dying," used to convey the slow and painful methods schools use to corrupt the youth into socio-economic puppets. Teacher: Student, why aren't you studying, you need to study so that you can advance in the world. Agreed! Hahaha.
5. Favorite color: Aqua - A color that is a cross between light blue and sea green. it is a jewel. it is often the color if a pices eyes. i am a pices, and aqua is my favorite color. my eyes are an aqua color. aqua ismy birthstone,march May tama ka! Ugh.
6. Birthplace: Quezon City, Philippines Not yet there e.
7. Birthmonth: February -February is the best month of the year. Its still nice and cold and snowy, but you know that spring is just around the corner if you're tired of all the bad weather. February is also the most unique month. 28 days long,(unless its every four years on a 'leap' year) Valentines day is also in February. (the fourteenth)It's a fun holiday named after St. Valentine, and it's for cute happy couples. Many single or unhappy peope celebrate the anti Valentines day, ie. Singles awareness day.
People born in February are without a doubt the Cutest, Smartest, and Funniest set of people. If you are born after the 20th, you are also aPIECES. This is the best Zodiac sign. "Kristy is so cute! Shes nice too! How did she get so purfect and talented?"
"She was born in February"
"OF COURSE! THAT MUST BE IT" Hahaha. Ayun eh. Nasa birthmonth pala yun.
8. Last person you talked to: Karl -Big sexy beast, great in bed, every girl loves but doesnt know yet... oh my god that guys such a karl Bwahahahahahahahahaha. Mmmkay.
9. Nickname: Jelle 1. A total hottie. Someone who has excellent looks, and maybe more.
2. An outstanding person, personality; a winner. "Oh man, I could just do that jem." What can I say? Hot talaga ata ako. Blog ko to, walang kokontra, Friends.
10. Your boyfriend's name. Mang asar ka pa!
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In an effin whirl
I was out of the circulation for a day and I admittedly missed half of my life.
Oh well. Baby therapy badly needed.
"You are my life now."
Yeah. Yeah. Say it.
I'm a little too late to start being a Twilight fanatic. And just so you know, I don't intend to be one. (Although, may I just say that Edward Cullen is THE ultimate sweet talker. I wish my old shirt knows how to talk that way. Oh wait, he does.)
I just had to quote it. I used to tell my old shirt that he was my life. And for obvious reasons, many people would agree. But you see, it isn't how I want it to be.
Bella Swan said that "To die in the place of someone else is a good way to go." What would she say to dying because of someone else? Relax, friends. I don't intend to die. Not now. Not yet, anyway.
I am tired. Tired of having to people notice me only when I have to say good bye. I am tired of having to look in the mirror and recite to myself who I think loves me enough to stop me. Tired of having people stop me, then forget me when I decide not to do it anyway.
See, it's very, very difficult to be me. People always think they know me. That it's all because of one person that THEY feel is not for me. They forget that by trying to tell me what they think, they hurt me. They keep thinking that I am staying away from THEM. No, love. You have done something to push me away.
I must admit to my faults. I guess I have recently been away. But you see, for the times I felt that I wasn't one of you anymore, I found some people who understood that they did not need to know everything just so they can make me feel better. Those are times that I wanted to be with you. And for that, I want to be with them. Consider it paying debts.
I do want to stay, but I'm not sure I should.
No, I don't want to die because of someone. But as it happens, I feel the burden of ending life just so I get these people out of my head.
But I won't. So please.
True Friends (sighs)
May naalala akong lumang entry.
Na baka maalala rin ninyo.
Palagay ko maaalala 'to ni Alpha.
Kasi mabilis ang pick up niya.
Kaya ng lahat ng kwento madali rin niyang nalalaman.
Parang si Jan, up to date yan kahit madalas MIA.
Pero wala na yatang mas dadalas sa pagka MIA ko.
Pero kasi may dahilan ako.
Na sa ibang entry ko na ikukwento.
Balik tayo sa dating entry ko.
Yung entry na sinabi ko na gusto ko ng aso.
Na papangalanan kong Miguel.
Kaso naisip ko baka magalit si Miggy.
Na bihira ko na makita dahil nga MIA ako.
Last na kita ko sa kanya yung burol ng lola ko kasama ni Alpha at Edge.
Si Edge na ang huling balita ko ay tungkol pa sa boylet niya.
Na kay Pearl ko pa nalaman.
So balik tayo ulit sa kwento ko.
So ayun nga.
Gusto ko ng aso.
Yung aso na kasing cute ni Matti.
Na crush na crush ni Bea.
Di bale Besfrend, tatanda rin yang si Matti.
In the meanwhile, you have LP Mark to keep you company.
Si Mark na Plurkboyfriend ko.
Na kaloveteam ni Gia at Bea Lorenzo.
Si Bea na classmate namin ni Dana at Alpha sa streetdance.
At Gia na plurkfriend namin nila Gege.
So balik na tayo sa kwento ko bago ako madistract ng pag iisip tungkol sa ipangreregalo ko kay Chinodoll na nag birthday kahapon.
Gusto ko nga ng aso na Miggy dapat ang ipapangalan ko.
Kaso mahal at naisip ko naman na bibili naman kami ni Karl ng rabbits for Christmas.
Si Karl na Bestee ko.
Na kasama ko madalas pag nakikita ko si Macar sa Rob.
So ayun na nga, bibilhan niya ako ng rabbit na papangalanan ko ng Anna at Guido.
Wait baka magalit si Anna.
Pero hindi naman siguro magagalit yun since bihira ko na siya makita mula nang lumipat siya sa Diliman.
Sa Diliman kung saan lumipat rin sina Alpha, Miggy, Edge, Chino, Imman at Neeanne,
Kaya wag na lang Anna.
Brianna na lang.
Nako wag pala yun.
Baka isipin ni Bry sa pangalan niya kinuha yung pangalan.
Tapos isumbong niya ako kay Mama Zoe na inampon ako recently.
Kahit na di gusto ni Ate Maple.
Hahaha. Sige na nga. Alice na lang.
1-4-3 (part 2)
"Mahal na mahal kita, pero ang sakit sakit na."
(Yes, Gege, Plurkfriend. That's your line.)
I was typing a comment for Gege. Tapos naisip ko na kung sasabihan ako nyan, nako. Di ko kakayanin. Pero. Wait! Nalinyahan na pala ako niyan. Narinig ko na yan! Hahaha. Hindi ko sasabihin kung sino. Pero palagay ko naman kilala na ninyo yan.
Oo, Alpha. Nasabi na ng lumang tshirt yan. Pero hindi lang siya ang luminya nyan. At! Oo, kilala mo rin ang bagong tshirt.
Napasok na rin naman ang lumang tshirt at bagong tshirt sa usapan, tuloy tuloy na natin.
Ganito kasi yan. Marami ang nagsasabi na ang lumang tshirt dapat nang palitan. Pero hindi kasi ako makahanap ng shirt na sasakto sa maliit kong pangangatawan. Pangit na nga ang luma kong tshirt e. Marami nang patches. Karamihan dun ako ang pumunit at siya ang nanahi. Aminado naman ako na kung naluma man ng husto ang tshirt na yun, yun ay dahil lagi kong gamit. Natatakot kasi ako na mawala siya sa labahan. Kaya naluma na siya ng sobra. Yung mga tshirt na iba naman, hindi ko magamit, hindi tuloy ako makahanap ng bagong tshirt na magiging favorite ko.
Muntik nang meron. Pero nang akala kong mapagsasalit ko na sila ng luma, nagtampo na at nawala sa labahan. May mga pagkakataon na nananawa na ako sa luma. Pero sabi nga ng Tita ko, may "intercontinental" value na kasi ang luma kong tshirt. Parang hindi ko talaga mapakawalan. Alam ko na dadating yung time, di ko na talaga siya masusuot. Di na magagawan ng paraan yung punit.
Pero ayaw ko muna isipin yun. Kasi di ko pa kakayanin.
Iniisip ko pa lang, parang naiistress na ang bangs ko. Kaya tama na. Magagamit ko pa ang lumang tshirt. Sana lang may mahanap ko pa si bago pag ready na ako bumili.
